God has a sense of humor!

Last night at bible study was SO hard for me. I heard about a child that is not in the best environment, going into care of the state and I just broke. I had one of those, it's not fair, why me moments. I know we all have them and we are human. I'm so thankful for the girls in my bible study who prayed for me in that moment. I love them so much.

This morning, I was doing my devotional and just had to laugh out loud at God and His timing. He definitely has a sense of humor. Here was my devotional today, you can't make this stuff up:

A lot of times things just don't go our way. The natural response to an undesired event in our life is disappointment. When you apply for that dream job and don't land it. When you think a relationship has potential and it suddenly ends. When you study for hours for an exam only to find you have to re-take it. When you take your 13th pregnancy test and still don't see that second line. When you submit your writings for publication and they aren't accepted. When you pray for that person to change and you don’t see anything different.

If we say that we don’t ever feel disappointment over things like this, we are probably trying to be too spiritual. Feeling disappointment is understandable and even accepted. But, it should be a stepping-stone on our path with Jesus…not the anchor that drowns us.

We all have dreams that we want to see transpire in our lives. But if they are our dreams and we have not consulted our Heavenly Father, then they often lack vision and purpose toward a higher goal. Our plans, even on our very best day, are nothing compared to the amazing plans God has for us.

We have to rest in the sovereignty of God and the fact that he will always keep His Word to us. The last time I checked, our Creator is never late in His promises to us.

I just sat there and laughed out loud. He can't speak any louder than that! My action plan is this: to pray for other women and give God genuine praise when He brings the miracle of life to them. It is a precious gift that should be praised and I want to be able to do that. I know it will be so hard and I won't always want to do so but I do believe that is what He is putting on my heart. I have spent the past few years so depressed and so disappointed that He isn't "blessing me" when in fact He hasn't stopped blessing me. I'm learning to slowly use the disappointment to grow my relationship with my Heavenly Father, to enjoy being drawn to Him even if it IS painful.

Verse for the Day:
Trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6

Good song I heard today too: Blessings by Laura Story